Rosalind Thon - Online Memorial Website

Today was a very special day...thank you mom for the visit.  No words were spoken, yet I knew you were there with me with all of my heart. 

For all of you reading this I will share my day with you because it was phenomenal.  I am about to start a new job as a StrongStart teacher in our little elementary school.  For weeks now I have been assembling toys (with my dads help), preping this and that trying to assemble an amazing room for the folks of our small community to come in and enjoy with their little ones.  With less than a week to opening I am feeling the chaotic crunch and I have been spending every available hour in this new classroom, usually with my boys in tow.  Today I had Bryson and after a long, long day of creating and decorating the bulletin boards with some friends of mine , Bryson and I continued on our own as my girls went home for dinner.  Exhausted from all the play bryson fell to sleep on a comfy pillow with his snuggly blanket and I continued on cutting, humming to the music and feeling good with the days progression.  Now a quick detour to make the ending make sense.  My classroom has a theme, that being the 'Very Hungry Caterpillar' by Eric carle, a famous childrens book.  The room is based on this story using the colours  as backdrop and the caterpillar and the butterfly as the main symbols, of course the butterfly because that symbolizes my mom to me, so this was a natural choice for me.  Anyways back on track, so I have spent the entire day emersed in hungry caterpillar 'stuff' and cutting out the letters to the alphabet realizing the music had ended I got up from the spot where I had been working on the floor for the past hour to replace the CD, walking back over to get to work I noticed this bright, green ballish dealio sitting right where I had just gotten up from.  I thought hmm thats weird I was sure we'd put all the toys away and why didn't I see that there for the past hour.  Reaching down to scoop up what I perceived to be a missed toy I found to my delight and complete and utter surprise the object was in fact a....caterpillar.... exactly like the one in the story with the same markings....PHENOMENAL.....it wasn't there minutes before I was sitting in the middle of and incredibly large room, yet here I find myself holding in my hands 'the very hungry caterpillar'.  Thank you mom you touch my heart in every way, I love you soooooo much.  A side note: our new little hungry caterpillar is making himself a nice home cuddled in amongst lilac leaves in a container on our table....my boys and I will be waiting anxiously to experience his unique transformation.  Enjoy your day, and may you all have a 'very hungry caterpillar' kinda day:) I love you all~marla

Hi mom,

I miss you...I miss you every morning as the day breaks...I miss you every noon time when the house falls quiet while sleepy little heads full of slumber take rest on their tiny little beds....I miss you in the evening when I would call just to say....I miss you as the moon falls just before the break of a brand new day.

Each new day I try once more to convince myself there has to be something to get up for.  I wisk through the day attending to this task and that, my mind full of blurriedness as I try not looking back......

But to no avail I always do...I look back through tired eyes searching for even one small glimpse of what I once knew....searching desperately, searching..... for you!

Why can't I find you, where have you gone? this can't be it , not all said and done.  I need you, now more than ever it seems, as I am attending to my day I lose focus, I fall drowsy in the pain that still stays.  It has been some time now, most said that would heal it but now more than ever the pain of losing you....God I can feel it.  I wasn't ready not just yet, to lose my friend, my mother my safe bet...  Sleep still eludes me at the most inconvenient of times...daily that is going on 854 nights.  I love you so very, very much...I love you and I miss your gentle 'moms touch'  Please come back to me, please mom I need you...I love you....~m

Today is mothers day....I miss you mom , God I miss you just terribly!!  This morning I woke up at 4:30am and I checked in on the boys and Bryson rolled over opened his eyes and whispered, 'happy 'mothas' day mama...' the tears started immediately today.  Happy 'mothas' day to you my mama.  I know I am here for two very important reasons but God how I dream of hugging you again and having you hug me back with your wrap around unconditional hugs.  I talked to gramma today as well and she misses you too, what are we to do here in this world without our 'rush-around-rosalind' to keep us on our toes???  On a clear day I can rationalize this loss, I can talk myself through not having you by my side, but somedays, most days lately....it all seems like crap and I feel so ripped off, I don't know how to do this without you...I don't want to do any of this without you.  I don't want to experience being a motherless mother not one more friggin' minute....universe here it is I am done with this experience, let their be a miracle...bring her back...please bring her back...I don't care if it is impossible figure it out and do it.  Mom please...please...please just find me and come back...please......

When Rosalind was in her teens she would drive her mother dizzy with the question"How will I know when I'm in love?, how will I know mom? how will I know?

Her mom always told her "you will just know!

So I wrote a song for her 2007 Memoriel CD and called it " How will I Know"

She told me the day she passed away that she loved me, I did not know that was the last time she would say it, I did tell her though, I Love you to Hon! and I still do! "I love you Ros!